Prologue:

I closed my eyes tightly and gripped onto my pillow. I could feel lars' eyes upon me from the other side of the hotel room. I pulled the sheets over my head and felt something hit the side of my face. It was my wedding ring. I streched my arms across the pillow and opened my eyes. It was 7 0' clock in the morning.
I slowly sat up and looked around. Kirk and Jason were asleep in ther beds and lars was sitting on the windowsill staring at me.

"What?" I asked grumpily

He just smiled and laughed. He got up and slowly walked over to the kitchen and began preparing breakfast.

I got up and sat on Kirks bed, he looked so peaceful. His long black hair was spread out across the pillow his mouth was slightly open. I leaned against his shoulder and put my mouth close to his ear.

"GET UP YOU LAZY SOD!" I bellowed.

His eyes opened quickly he rolled over and tried to push me off the bed.

"What the fuck did you do that for?" he said timidly.

I smiled softly and looked around. Lars was in the kitchen and Jason was still asleep. I went up close to Kirk's face and pecked him on the cheek.

"James..." He whispered.

I smiled menacingly and went in the kitchen to give Lars a good talking too. Kirk remained in bed, still nervous about meeting Lani for the first time in months.

I stared out at the open sea. I hadn't seen the seaside in months. The tour had been going on for what seemed like an eternity and i hadn't realised how much i missed the smell of the salty air and the feel of the soft golden sand under my feet.
Kirk was sitting on a bench next to Lani and I was lying on a beach towel waiting for Francesca to arrive. I could feel my heart tremble, what if i let on to was really going on? What if she found out? Would she divorce me? Would she take the kids?
I had spent hours begging Kirk not to tell a soul, but he was starting to slip up. Lars might have an idea as to what's happening, but as long as he can keep quiet i should be alright.

I heard footsteps behind me. I sat up and looked around Francesca was there. I stood up and greeted her with a kiss. I saw Kirk stare at me from across the beach. Guilt welled up inside me.
We sat and chatted for at least an hour. I asked her how the kids were and how she was. I lied about missing her and came up with a cock and bull story about how much i wanted to be at home with her, when really all i wanted was to get away from her. Nevermind i thought. We'll be on tour in australia soon. At last i can get away.

We all had lunch at some cafe on the bay. Kirk downed a bottle of vodka and we all laughed as he stumbled around the cafe asking random passers by if they'd seen his puppy! Eventually we were chucked out. ("We didn't like it here anyway!" bellowed Lars as we went through the door)
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That night, we spent the evening with out wives in the hotel, i could tell fran was gagging for it, but i pretended to be tired and went to bed at twelve. I could tell she was dissapointed because she stayed up half the night pouting.
The next morning i took her to the airport and said goodbye. We kissed briefly before she hurried onto the plane. Lars elbowed me in the ribs. It was time for our plane. We were rushed into first class and seated around a table. The plane slowly took off and i relaxed in my chair.
Kirk was opposite me. His face was white and his body was stiff. Lars (sitting next to me) poked kirks arm.

"Kirk, dude. you look like your gonna throw up! You ok?"

Kirk nodded his head and took a sip of water form his bottle. I felt his leg brush against mine. A shiver of pleasure ran down my spine. It would be ten hours until we reached australia. I smiled menacingly at kirk. He looked scared.
Lars took out a bottle of vodka from his sachel.

"How the hell did you get that on board?" I sniggered.

Lars tapped his nose and winked, Jason grinned.
Kirk, Jason and Lars spent the next hour taking sips of vodka. I wouldn't touch the stuff of course, but they drank and drank until we finally reached australia.
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A couple of hours later I was undressing in my hotel room. I tore open my shirt and threw it over in the corner of the room. I was just starting to unzip my trousers when i heard a knock at the door. I brushed my long blonde hair off my face and loosened my necklace.
The door slowly crept open. Kirk was standing there. He saw me and shook his head.

"I shouldn't have come." He whispered
"Come in kirk." I commanded.

A shiver ran down his spine. He crept in and closed the door slowly behind him.

"James...the past two days have been hell for me...I ouldn't even look lani in the eye. I feel like such a coward."
"me too."

He sighed and looked at me longingly. I suddenly felt tense.

"kirk, don't look at me like that."
"Why?" He said soflty.

He began to walk slowly towards me. I flinched as he ran his hand through my hair.

"Maybe this isn't right...maybe we should give this up..it's stupid..."
"ssshh" he said putting his index finger to my mouth.

He smiled deviously and turned the key in the door. I walked backwards and fell clumsily onto the bed. Kirk walked towards me and crwaled ontop of me. i could feel the sweat running down my back.The voice inside my head yelled 'push him off, push him off!' but i couldn't. I was weak.

Then i felt his lips on my chest. This was really happening.


End of Part 1
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Part 2 the excitement is unbearable!

I woke up the next morning to a pleasant smell of aftershave. The sunlight from the window gleamed across the bedsheets. I looked to the right. There was Kirk. Sleeping by my side, his head was resting against my shoulder and his hand was lying across my chest. His long black hair tickled my shoulder. I had my arm around his waist.
Guilt welled up inside me once more. I was stronger than him, why couldn't i fight him off? Pathetic little poof. The words echoed in my brain.
I felt kirks hand rise and touch my cheek. I looked into his now open eyes. He put his mouth dangerously close to mine. I pushed him away.

"Kirk..Last night...last night was an accident okay? I was a little too tired and you'd had too much vodka."

I saw the dissapointment in his eyes. He slowly crawled ontop of me and began to kiss my lips. I pushed him away hard. He fell backwards onto the bed. I got out and began to get dressed. Kirk stayed on the bed. Watching me.

"Kirk i'm serious. This whole thing is childish, I'm not gay. I hated last night."

Kirk sighed deeply.

"It didn't feel like it too me"

I turned around and frowned at him.

"Get out!"
"James..."
"Go."

He nodded and walked into the hall. Breakfast was not going to be fun.

I sat at the table and began munching my waffles. Kirk stared at me angrily from across the room. Lars came in and saw our faces.

"What the fock is wrong now?!"

I decided to make something up.

"Kirk keeps fucking up the roam solo!"
"Does he? I haven't noticed."
"Yeah. He does." I scowled at kirk, then winked. Kirk understood.
"Not my fault!" He lied, "My guitar is messed up!"
"Yeah, yeah..." I said patronisingly.

Lars seemed to buy it. He meerly laughed at us and grabbed some waffles.
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It was a week after kirk had stayed the night in my room and i was nakered after a 2 hour concert. I was sprawled out on my bed trying not to think of the argument i'd just had with frncesca over the phone when i heard a noise from kirks room. Probably a groupie i thought, but then i heard a familiar voice coming from the hall.
I crept to my door and pushed it open. There was no-one there so i tiptoed to kirks room and pressed my ear agianst the door.
Muffled noises were coming from the room. I peeped through the keyhole. Kirk was on all fours on the bed crawling ontop of someone. I couldn't see who. I pushed open the door slowly hoping they wouldn't notice and peered through the crack.

A man with long reddish brown hair was lying on the bed underneath Kirk. It was lars.

End of Part Two
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The door suddnely made a loud creaking noise. I held my breath, hoping thet hadn't noticed. They had. Lars sat up and looked at me, i hurriedly pushed the door closed and rushed into my room. Slamming the door behind me. I leant back against the door and panted loudly. Sweat was running down my forehead. I wiped it away and sat down on my bed, downing a bottle of water quickly. Why did i even care? I didn't know.
I heard a knock at the door. It was Kirk.

"James, james can i come in?"
"Piss off slut!"
"Please, you don't understand!"

I couldn't stop myself, his voice was so soft. I tiptoed to the door and opened it halfway. kirk was standing there. tears in his eyes. I let him in and he sat down on my bed, sobbing. I raised one eyebrow at him.

"I..It was..Lars...he c-came onto me and i couldn't resist. I thought you hated me..."

I leant aginst the door and looked down at him.

"Pussy." I whispered.
He looked at me and saw that i was smiling. He began to smile aswell.

"I'm sorry james...."
"Yeah, well we all know Lars is a gay poof."

Kirk laughed.

"At least he wanted too..y'know..."

I shook my head and walked towards him, i stood infront of him and pushed him onto his back. I crawled ontop of him, not knowing what i was doing. Then realising what i was about to do i asked him.

"Is this what you want kirk?"

A tear ran down his cheek, for some reason unknown to me and i wiped it away. I kissed his lips. What on earth was i playing at? Then i realised that my hand had slipped down to his waist. I needed to stop before i did something i regreted, but i couldn't. All i needed was an excuse to stop, and it came in the form of a knock at the door.

"Who's there?" I bellowed.
"It's me jason, we're havong a meeting in the kitchen in 5 minutes!"
"Why?"
"Something strange is going on around here, and i'm gonna get to the bottom of it!"

I rolled off Kirk and sat up. Kirk looked at me, he waited until we heard Jason walk off down the corridor then spoke.

"What are we gonna do?" He whispered, "What if lars blabs? Jason'll freak out! And what if the press find out...oh god james i dont know what to do, tell me what to do!"
"Don't say anything. Just keep your cool and let me do the talking, we don't know that he knows yet."

Kirk sat up and kissed me on the cheek.

"Pussy." I whispered, but i was feeling more like one myself as the time for the meeting drew nearer.
5 minutes later and me, lars and kirk entered the kitchen to find jasin sitting there tapping his foot.

"Now." He said sternly, "Would someone care to tell me what all these strange noises coming from the bedrooms are, and why you lot keep acting so suspicious?

A lump grew in my throat, how was i gonna get out of this one?
Lars began to speak....oh god, i thought...here we go.

End of Part three!
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I closed my eyes, urging lars to shut up and let me speak, but it was too late.

"Jason. You were right." He said.
"What?" said Jason, "you mean, they...."

Lars nodded his head,

"What are you two fuckers on about?" I demanded
"James, we know you and kirk are...that way."

I did my best to look confused.

"Come on james. You think i'd get gay with kirk for nothing? I did it because Jason TOLD me too. I know you two are together."
"You bastard." I said harshly.

Jason shook his head.
"No James, Lars was only trying to find out what the hell's been going on round here!"
I looked at kirk. He had tears in his eyes. The expression on his face read 'now we're fucked.'
Lars walked over to me and rubbed my shoulder.

"James. Why didn't you tell us?"
"Think about it lars. Me and kirk are married. I've got three kids, i didn't want to lose them. And if the media find out we're dead."

Lars shook his head.
"Ths whole thing has too stay secret. No-one outside the band must find out."
"Yes they will." said Jason.
"Why?" Said Lars.
"Coz i'm telling lani and fran."

Kirk shook his head.
"Jas, please....."
"No. I'm gonna tell them, there ain't one you gonna stop me! Y'understand. If you really cared about your kids James, you'd phone fran now and tell her. But since your such a coward i'll have too tell her next week in sydney when she visits."

I said nothing.
"You fucking queers..." Jason added.
Kirk frowned.
"After all we've been through together...."
Jason shook his head. Kirk grabbed my arm and led me into his room. I could see he was upset. I hugged him hard, a little harder than intended and kissed his forehead.

"James...Lani's gonna kill me and i've ruined your marriage.."
"It's not your fault. It wasn't your fault when we first kissed and it isn't your fault that it got so far. If fran leaves me kirk, i'm gonna apply for custardy of my kids and i'm gonna let you and lani get on with it."
"She'll leave me though."
I shook my head.
"You ain't got kids. She won't leave you".

Kirk lay back on his bed. He unbuttoned his trousers and pulled them off, then he slowly pulled his t-shirt over his head. He wiped his eyes and hit the bed in anger and frustration.

"fucking Jason! fucking Lars!"
I lay next ot him on the bed to comfort him. I hugged him thight and massaged his shoulders. He began to sob. It felt like i was hugging a very muscular woman.
I felt his hand go up my shirt and across my chest. He kissed my cheek and i sighed deeply. He smiled at me. I was about to kiss him when i heard noises behind the door. I got up and swung it open. Jason was standing there, he looked at kirk and shook his head.

"You don't deserve marriages. If i had fran and lani's phone number i'd phone them right now."
"You sad pirvert...." I began.
"Shut up poofy, go sleep with your bitch!" He yelled.

I snarled and hit him in the stomach. He fell on the floor beneath me.

"What would you know about marriages Jason!" I yelled and slammed the door in his face.
I turned around to find kirk standing there. White as a sheet.

"James why'd you hit him?"
"I...I dunno..."
He kissed me softly. We both lied down on the bed, holding hands. This was so weird, yet it felt right somehow. Kirk put his head against my shouler and fell asleep. I decided i would stay in kirks room for the night.

End of part four!
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A week slowly dragged by, a week of torture for me and kirk. Jason and I had been giving each other dirty looks at every oppurtunity, but i knew i couldn't stop him. He was one of frans best friends, he cared about her well-being. He was doing this for her and lani's sake, not for his own benefit.
Every night at 12am, kirk would creep into my bedroom. Sometimes to talk, sometimes for other things. Tommorow was the day that fran would be arriving, and i was lying in my bed contemplating the argument to come when i heard a knock at the door. I got up and opened it. To my surprise i found Jason standing there in his kalvin cleins.
"Jas, what are you doing here...?"
"James. I came to say sorry, i've done something i shouldnt've."
"What?" I said alarmed.
"I stole Lani and Fran's numbers from Kirk's address book. They're on their way here now, they just arrived at the airport. Their flight was early, and i...i told them that...."
"What?"
"You were cheating on fran and kirk was cheating on Lani, but i didn't say who with. I couldn't do it. I'm sorry, you'll have to tell them yourself."

This was not what i wanted to hear.

"Fuck you Jason." I said harshly.
I stormed out of the room and into kirks.
"James! What is it?" He said whilst yawning.
"Guess what mr.smarty pants has done."
I told kirk what Jason had done and he was horrified.

"NO! She'll think i'm a stupid little cheat! She'll come over here and kill me! if i explain it to her now, she'll flip out! James, what are we going to do?"
"Run away." said a voice in the corner. It was Lars. I looked at him, puzzled.
"At least until this blows over. Me and Jas'll tell them that you are staying at a separate hotel, and we dont know where. We'll say you've been to some award ceremony or another. Wait 'till they calm down and then come back."
"That would just make us cowards." Kirk said.
"Alive cowards." I added.
"You're right." He said, "Lets get outta here!"
He grabbed his suitcase and i grabbed mine. We took a load of money and food and dashed outside for a cab. It was too late. Francesca and Lani were marching up the street angrily and purposefully. Now we were for it. How were we gonna explain that we were actually gay and had been getting it on behind their backs?
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"James! What a pleasant surprise! What? Leaving already? I only just arrived!" Said francesca as she glared angrily into my eyes.
Lani didn't say anything to kirk, she just shook her head and started crying.
"Lani please, you don't understand..."
"SHUT UP KIRK!" Yelled Francesca, "Both of you GET INSIDE!"
Me and kirk exchanged worried looks.
We were marched upstairs into the kitchen where we were sat down together at a table infront of Lani and Francesca, Fran paced back and forth whilst Lani stood there shaking her head and crying.
"Lani please don't cry...."Started Kirk.
"Shut up." Said Fran. "Now James, would you care to tell me what the hell has been going on here? I don't want to know who this bitch is you've been sleeping with, but what i do want to know is why you two have both been cheating on us at the same time!"
We sat in silence for a while until I suddenly found the strength to speak.
"Lani, Fran. There were no bitches..Me and Kirk are gay with each other."
I looked up, tears in my eyes. I had no idea this was gonna be so hard. I dreaded Frans reaction....

End of part 5
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Fran said nothing, so did lani. I could see the tears forming in Kirks eyes as he stared desperately at lani. I knew he felt guilty, but what's done is done. I finally decided to speak.
"Fran. I'll tell you the truth, i didn't wanna tell you because i thought that i'd lose the kids over soemthing that wasn't real. But...me and kirk are kind of together now. I'm sorry i was such a coward before..."
"James." She said croakily,"You're obviously confused, and so's kirk. We'll have to separate you until you've straightened your head out. You're obviously not well, but don't worry. We'll look after you."
"What? Fran, i'm fine and so's kirk." She shook her head. She was in denial and so was lani, i looked at kirk. He sighed.
"Lani darling. We are together. It's taken a while but we've decided that we wanna be together..."
"Kirk you're delusional. I think you need some paracetamol, my god you look really ill!"
"Do i?"
"Yes, and you james."
I sat and stared at lani and fran. Were they just dellusional or crazy? I didn't have time to decide. Fran grabbed my arm and led me out of the room. Lars and Jason were outside.
"Boys please could you leave the hotel for the night. Kirk and James are very ill and need taking care of..."
"Then get a doctor..."
"NO! No need, me and lani can handle it."
"Fran i'm fine.."
She put her hand over my mouth and kissed my cheek. She obviously thought i was hallucinating or something because she gripped onto my arm really tight as she led me to my room.
When Jason and Lars had left fran told me to go to bed, when i refused she pushed me over gently onto the bed and told me to go to sleep. I could hear lani doing the same to kirk in the other room. This was too weird.
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I slowly opened my eyes to find that it was 2am. Fran was lying beside me, holding onto me tightly, her long blonde her trailing across the pillow. Suddenly, i felt a strange sensation flowing through me. It was lust. Kirk was in the other room, guarded by his wife and i was here being guarded by mine. But that made it even more fun.
I pushed fran off me gently and crept into the hall silently. Slowly i pushed open kirks door. He was lying on the bed, eyes wide open. Lani was lying next to him.
"James..."He stuttered as i approached,"James its too much of a risk! Maybe we shouldn't be together. Lani thinks i'm dellusional, maybe she's right. Maybe...."
I put my index finger to his lips. He smiled with pleasure. I took his hand and led him into lars' room. I wasn't confused this time. I knew perfectly well what i was doing.
I pushed him onto the bed, he smiled lustfully. I slowly crawled ontop of him, not noticing the footsteps behind me in the hall.

Switching to lani's point of view.
I tiptoed to the door and pressed my ear against it. I could hear shuffling noises coming from lars' room. I didn't like it. I bent down and put my eye to the keyhole. I could see kirk lying on the bed, grinning widely and i could see some arms reaching next to him on the bed. Someone was crawling ontop of him. Then i saw a head slowly rise up kirk's chest and up to his neck. I recognised it at once. It was james. They weren't dellusional, they were gay. I crouched there, unable to blink or look away. I saw james slowly kiss kirks neck. I heard kirk moan with pleasure. This couldn't be happening, i was dreaming. Oh please let me be dreaming. I wasn't.
I rushed to fran's room and woke her up. When i told her what i'd seen she didn't believe me. I dragged her to lars' door and she peeped through the keyhole. She cried out in disgust. I didn't wanna know what they were doing in there.
Fran pushed open the door. There they were, lying on the bed. Halfway through a passionate kiss. I looked away in disgust. How could kirk do this? I felt anger bubble up inside me. Slut. The word repeated itself in my brain 'till i yelled it so loud that i felt the ground tremble beneath me.
Fran said nothing, she was equally disgusted.
"We told you. At least we tried to tell you. but you wouldn't believe us."
Fran said nothing. Then,she dragged james out of the room by his ear, like a naughty boy.I heard yelling from the room next door. Their marriage was over, for sure. I stared at kirk, his face was filled with guilt.
"Lani. Im sorry. I really am, but i did it because i care about James..."
"Don't say anything kirk, i don't wanna hear it. Its over, okay."
He sat and said nothing. I walked out of the room and began to pack my suitcase. Kirk had betrayed me. I couldn't ever look at his face again without hating him, or so i thought.
I left for San Fransisco in the early hours of the morning. Wondering if Fran could ever forgive James for what had happened.

End of Part 6!
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Back to James' point of view

A year has passed by. One week after fran caught me and kirk kissing she filed for divorce. We were still waiting for the documents to arrive to say we were legally separated. Lani and Kirk broke up and kirk drinks twice as much as he used too. Spiraling him into a state of depression. Francesca took the kids away from me two weeks after she filed for divorce. The last time i saw either her or teh kids was about 11 months ago when she left. She hasn't phoned me since. I applied for their custody 5 times but i was turned down. Now i sit alone in my mansion whishing they were here with me.
We are now working on our new album to be released next year. Lars and Jason told me and Kirk that if we ever did something like that again it would be the end of Metallica. But i can't help it. Every time i see him my heart leaps but i know i can't do anything.
Right now,i'm really worried for him. Lars told me that he was taking pot for his depression (he called it legalised cannabis, i don't believe him), I am really worried that kirk'll end up getting hurt with all the drugs and the drink.
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It is nine o' clock on tuesday night and i am sitting on the couch, sipping some OJ and watching Kerrang! The phone rings loudly and i get up and march into the hall. I pick up, it's lars.
"James! James! You gotta help me! I'm in deep shit! Oh god james help!"
"Why whats happened?"
"Its Kirk, we went drinking together and i think he had to much coz when we got home he passed out on the couch. I thought he was sleeping so i left him there for an hour, but now i can't feel his pulse! Fuck James, what do i do?"
"Call a fucking ambulance dick! I'm coming over there now!"
I slammed down the phone and ran outside and into the car. I put the keys in the ignition and slammed down on the accelerator. Zooming down the road to Lars' house. I got out of the carand slammed open the front door. The ambulance hadn't arrived yet. I ran into the living room where lars was trying to check kirks pulse.
"kirk! kirk! Please wake up!" He begged.
I pushed Lars out of the way. There he was lying on the couch. His face was white and his eyes were closed. I pushed down on his chest, i'd seen this done on TV before somewhere. I let go, nothing was happening.
"Lars? Whats the recovery position?"
"How would i know?" He bellowed.
I rolled kirk over onto his front so he wouldn't choke on his own vomit and held his hand tightly as i waited for the ambulance. I heard the siren outside. It was ok, they were gonna help kirk. Lars rushed outside to greet them and soon they were carrying him away in a stretcher. I got into the ambulance with him and left lars on the doorstep. I clutched onto kirks hand tightly, not knowing what to do.
The ambulance man put an oxygen mask over kirks mouth and pushed on his chest in the correct way. I heard kirk gasp for breath. He was alive, for now.

End of part 7!
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We eventually arrived at the hospital. They quickly hurried Kirk out of the ambulance and carried him away. A young woman took my hand and led me to the waiting room. I grabbed some coffee from the machines and sat down. My hand was shaking so violently that the coffee was spilling over the sides all over he floor, but i managed to save enough for me to drink. I stared at the clock, 9.30. I prayed that kirk would be alrght and breathed in deeply and slowly. What if he was in a coma? What if he didn't wake up? Oh god please let him be alright.
Ten minutes later lars came bursting through the doors.
"Where is he?"
I pointed to the door. Lars sat down, he took one look at me and his eyes opened wide.
"James, you're white! Are you okay?"
"F-fine." I stuttered.
Lars rubbed my shoulder slowly, it felt awkward and kinky. I pushed his arm off.
"James, are you alrght?"
"fine."
"You dont look it."
I looked at him sadly, he read my mind.
"You still care about him, huh?"
I nodded and put my head in my hands. I started to cry. I'd never cried infront of another man before. Lars touched my hair, i flinched.
"Hey now James, relax, Kirk'll be alright, Come here."
He put his arms around me in a bear hug.I tried to push him away but i was too weak. He pulled me towards him so my head rested on his shoulder. he ran his hand through my hair.
"There James, it's alright."
I had a strange feeling that he was trying it on, but i said nothing and thought of kirk. Wondering if he was okay.
After an hour had passed, a nurse came up to us. i realised that i was still resting on Lars' shoulder and sat up. The nurse approached me and spoke.
"Are you Mr.James Hetfield..."
"yes. Is kirk alright?"
She looked at me sternly and smiled.
"Yes he's alright, but he has some severe liver damage which needs operating on. Don't worry though, he'll be alright once we've operated."
"thank you so much."
"No problem sir."
I smiled and looked at lars, he smiled back.
"He's gonna be alright." mumbled Lars as he hugged me a bit too hard causing me to go red. Lars smiled when he saw my tomato-esque face. He ran his fingers through my hair, but this time i idn't stop him. I waited for the nurse to leave.
"Lars...."
"James, look. Do you wanna go somewhere quieter when they've finished on Kirk?"
"How can i trust you after what you did to kirk?"
"Jason made me do it. He said it was vital, i was a fool i admit. But i'm serious about this James. Now do you wanna go somewhere else?"
"Not while kirk is here. i won't. I still care about him."
"As a friend, but come on. I saw you look at me in the dressing rooms."
"Lars, Kirk is about to undergo a very serious operation!"
"Yes, i know. Maybe another time?"
"Maybe."

End Of Part 8!
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Part 9
Two more hours passed and lars had fallen asleep. His head rested on my leg and his body was lying across three chairs. I sat upright, drinking my third cup of coffee. I looked down at lars. What was i thinkung? Was i that desperate? But i couldn't say no to Lars. It was the way he was, you couln't say no to him. I stared up at the clock, 11.30pm.
I heard footsteps coming down the hall. It was the nurse. She loked at me and smiled,i sighed with relief.
"Mr.Hammett's operation is complete, he is currently resting in the ward. We advised him not to, but when he heard you and Mr.Ulrich were here, he demanded to see you. He's in a very fragile state Mr.Hetfield, so i advise you to be gentle with him."
"James is always gentle with him." Said Lars, just waking up. I couldn't help but smile.
We were led into the ward. Kirk was lying there in the bed, rubbing his side. He saw me and smiled.
"James!" He said faintly. I rushed towards him and hugged him softly. Lars stood there, looking jealous. I stared at him lustfully, he smiled and hugged Kirk quickly.
"kirk, why'd you drink so much." I asked.
"I...I dunno. I was depressed, i needed to get away from it all, but i got carried away. I'm sorry i scared you."
I smiled and rubbed his shoulder.
"It doesn't matter now. As long as you're alright."
"er Lars, would you mind leaving the room, i kinda need to talk to James. Alone." Kirk stammered. Lars nodded his head and left the room.
I turned to look at kirk, there were tears in his eyes.
"James...I'm sorry...Everything was my fault."
"I've told you a thousand times kirk, it wasn't your fault."
He looked at me sadly and grabbed hold of my hand.
"I miss you James. Its been a year since what happened...and i miss you so much."
I felt the guilt bubble up inside me. Fucking Lars! Why? Why now? I looked at kirk mournfully and kissed his forehead softly.
"You need to rest kirk, you've had a hard time. Me and Lars'll go home tonight and we'll see you tommorow morning okay?"
"James don't leave." He begged. I took his hand again and touched my cheek with it.
"I'll be back tommorow. Sleep well."
I walked out of the room, I could feel my eyes filling with tears.
"Well, James. I guess we better be going. I'll give you a lift to my house seen as your car is parked in my drive."
"Fuck you Lars."
He looked at me and frowned.
"Hey now James, just cos kirk is getting all miserable coz he can't get a bit of cock anymore, doesn't mean you should go back on what we said!"
"You bastard!"
"Look James, do you want a lift or not?"
"Fine, I'll have a lift, but when o get to your house i'm getting in my car and going!"
"Fine." Said Lars as we walked outside.
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The drive to Lars' house was hell, we were both pissed off at each other so neither of us said anything until we reached the driveway.
Lars pulled on the hand brake and the car came to a hault. I went to push open the door but it was locked. I looked at Lars. His hand was on my leg.
"James, please don't be mad at me, I care about you I really do."
I pushed him away and tried to force the door, but it was locked tight. I looked for the keys. They were inbetween Lars' legs. He looked at me lustfully, i couldnt deny him, not now anyway. I reached inbetween his legs, but it wasn't the keys I was grabbing. I kissed Lars' lips, the keys fell to the floor. All I could think of was Kirk. I puled away from Lars.
"I can't do this I'm sorry..."
He nodded his head and took my hand. He led me out of the car and into the house. He locked the door behind him and switched on the lights.
"Fancy some hot chocolate?"
I nodded my head. He sat me down at the table and gave me the drink. I sipped at it gratefully and stared into his eyes.
"I've been such a twat tonight James. You still haven't gotten over kirk. I'm sorry."
I said nothing. I put the mug down and put my hand on his leg. Lars smiled menacingly.
"I take it you like hot chocolate." He said laughing. He took my and and led me to his bedroom, i started to shiver.
"Don't worry, I'll keep you warm." He said.

End Of Part 9
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whoa!!! James and Lars sitting in a tree k-i-s-s-i-n-g!! :lol: (sorry for the primary school metallity!!! i'm kinda on one!!) but wow my imagination totally went off on one!! great update i can't wait to see what's gunna happen next!!!! :tu: :horns:

Haha, Lars and James going to the bathroom, this should be interesting. Hope you post more soon.

Part 10 anybody?

I woke up to a gentle sound of snoring from my right. Lars was lying next to me, sleeping peacefully after a long night of passion. I looked around, the sun was shining in through the window. It was a beautiful morning. I looked at the time, 9am. I had to go to the hospital this morning and see kirk. Oh god, what would i say? How the hell was i supposed to tell him i was with Lars now?
I heard mumbling from my right, Lars had just woken up.
"Hey babe..."
I shook my head.
"Don't call me babe." I said sternly.
"hey, hey now...Why so grumpy? Especially after last night..." His voice trailed away.
"You still love kirk, don't you." He said suddenly.
"No lars...its just..."
He hugged me tightly and kissed my lips softly.
"You still love kirk now?"
"Lars please..."
He kissed me harder and stroked my chest.
"now?"
He rolled ontop of me and kept kissing harder and harder.
"Now?"
I pushed him off. He rolled off me. I shook my head and sat up. I put my head in my hands and sobbed.
"James, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to upset you..."
He grabbed my hand and squeezed hard. I turned around and smiled at him. He sat up and kissed my cheek.
"Lets go down the hospital eh? Lets go see if kirk is alright. I'll make us some breakfast."
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Within an hour we were at the hospital. Jason was there too. We all sat in the waiting room waiting for kirk to call us in. Jason went first, then lars, then kirk called for me.
I walked in, not knowing what to say. I didn't want to tell kirk what i'd done. I walked in to find Lars sitting by kirks bed. Kirk was in tears. Jason had already left the room.
"Is it true, James?" Kirk demanded.
"What?" I said, trying to look confused.
"You slept in Lars' house last night!"
I looked at Lars. He mouthed the words i'm sorry and i realised he'd grassed me up.
"I had to tell him James, he made me. I'm so sorry, but he has to know."
I walked towards kirk and put my arms around him. He tried to push me away but he was too weak. I started to sob. I felt so guilty. It was my fault he was here in the first place and now i was just making things worse. I let go of kirk.
"I'm sorry kirk, i just couldn't stop myself. Its over. It was over a year ago, but we still denied it. I swear kirk. Its over."
He looked at me miserably.
"i understand."
I smiled at him, but he didn't smile back. I looked at lars.
"We better go James. We'll see you around kirk, i hope you get well son."
He took my hand and i saw kirk's face drop even further to the ground. My mind filled with guilt. Lars pulled me out of the room. We walked outside in silence and got into Lars' car. He held my hand tightly and placed it on the gear stick. He drove the car using my hand as a gear stick. We eventually arrived at a restaurant filled with paparazzi scum. He took my hand and led me out of the car. I looked into his eyes. He was dead serious about this. I tried to talk him out of it but he said that we needed to do this. He led me inside holding my hand tightly. I heard a camera take a photo and i heard the quick scribbling of pencils writing down our every move. I saw down opposite lars and he smiled at me. I smiled back nervously. He took my hand under the table and flicked his long hair off his face.
"We can do this." He said.
I looked around at the journalists and photographers. Suddenly, i realised what we were doing. I seriously doubted that we were gonna get away with this. I pulled Lars' hand and lurched forward off my seat but he pulled me back.
"James, there's nothing to be afraid of."
I shuddered and closed my eyes. Nervous as hell.

End of part 10
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ooooo the press will have a field day!!! and poor kirky aswell i hope james we be totally happy with lars!!! and god what will jason say :o nice i can't wait for a update hunni!!!

Reading this I kept on asking myslef " I wonder what Jason has to say" lol. Was an awesome update, please post more soon

That night, as i lay awake in bed all I could think about was what was gona happen between me and lars. Were we taking it too far? The press had seen us at that cafe. I could picture the story in my head. I could picture kirks face as the tv in the hospital displayed MTV news. I closed my eyes and moaned. I couldn't sleep.
I walked downstairs and turned the tv on. I sat down on the settee and turned Kerrang on. Until it sleeps was playing, I sat and watched myself singing and I noticed Kirk feeling himself up halfway through the song. I felt my hand reaching down my trousers. What the hell was I doing? I flinched and turned the channel over. There he was again, on the frantic video, shirt hanging open. I shook my head and put MTV news on. I saw myself and Lars sitting in the cafe. Oh God no! I thought. The reporter began to speak.
"Today at Lunchtime Lars Ulrich and James Hetfield were spotted by our reporters at a Restaurant in San Fransisco. Illegidly they were holding hands and flirting! Mr.Steve Baldwin our reporter has more information...."
I closed my eyes, I knew Kirk would be watching this. I gritted my teeth, I needed a beer. I hadn't had one in years, I couldn't start drinking again, not after I'd come so far. Could I?

Switching to kirks point of view
I had just been released from the hospital after watching MTV news. It was true, they were together. Everything I'd worked for was gone. I walked to the beach. The same beach I'd been to the previous year with Lani and the guys. James had been there with Fran. I sighed deeply at the thought of James. What the hell was I supposed to do now?
I sat down on the sand looking out at the sea. The soft breeze blew through my hair, I smiled and looked at the moon. I heard footsteps behind me. I turned around, James was there. Long blonde hair blowing in the breeze.
"James..."
"Don't speak." He said. He bent down and put a finger over my lips, " I made a mistake. I don't care about lars, I was so wrong..."
"James?"
He kissed me passionatley and kneeled down on the floor next to me. I could taste beer on his lips. I pulled away.
"Have you been drinking?"
"Only one can, i needed it. i was so upset kirk..."
I felt a shiver run down my spine, he was doing exactly what I had done. I had to save him. I smiled and spoke softly.
"Don't do it again, you don't need it. I'm here for you now."
I kissed him softly and he rolled ontop of me, kissing me harder each time.
"Well,Well,Well..What have we here?" Said a voice from behind us. It was Jason. " A couple of queers getting kinky on the beach! James, i thought you were shagging lars now? hmph, you're even more of a slut than i realised!"
I was scared, i gripped onto James' muscular torso tightly. almost in tears.
"Piss off Jason!" Said James, "You were fired from Metallica once and I can do it again!"
"Oh yeah." Said Lars, who had just walked behind Jason.
"Whats going on?" I said timidly.
"James is cheating on me, threatening to fire my basist and getting gay with my guitarist!"
"He got gay with you and nobody said anything, but if he goes near me, it's the end of the world!"
Jason and Lars looked at me angrily. I shut up. James scowled at them both.
"Why don't you do just go shag each other?" James demanded.
"I'm not gay! And Lars is Bi, so that doesn't really matter anway. Its you thats the problem, Kirk wasn't gay until you made him be, so you could have your way with him!" Said Jason angrily.
"I chose to be with James...." I yelled.
"Shut it kirk!" Lars yelled, "Or you'll lose your job aswell!"
"Aswell?" I asked.
"Yeah, because James has been fired!"
"You can't do that! It's my band aswell!" Yelled James,"I'm the lead singer, you can't replace me!"
"Yeah we can."
Lars and Jason raised their hands. James looked at me in despair, he knew my job meant everything to me. I hugged him tightly and closed my eyes.
"Kirk, let go of him or we'll get rid of you aswell!"
"You couldn't replace me or James...The fans would buy anything. You need to open your eyes and stop being such prats! You don't understand any of this!"
"I hear that guy from Dragonforce is a good soloist..." Mumbled Jason. I looked up in disbelief. James snarled.
"Bastard!" He yelled and tackled Jason down to the floor. He began to hit the hell out of him and Lars couldn't stop him. Jason's face was getting redder and redder with blood as the seconds ticked by. I stood up and dived onto James, sending him rolling onto the sand. He looked up at me, i was lying ontop of him.
"Kirk...."
He closed his eyes. Tears ran down his cheeks. Jason stood up, Lars grabbed his arm and steered him away.
"This whole thing is getting weird..." I heard him say.
I stroked james' cheek. He held my hand. We were together at last, but we had payed the ultimate price for it. I rested my head on his chest and he stroked my hair. We gazed up at the stars. Metallica was over and it was our fault. I started to sob, James rubbed my shoulder and kissed my cheek.
"Together at last..." He mumbled solemnly.

THE END

Phew..that was a long one! Hope you gals enjoyed it! It is now officialy finished! YAY! :D

WHAT!!! i was just getting into that!!! i need more damn you lol that was a damn fine story babe i really enjoyed it more soon yeah?

I've finished that one BUT I might write another story if you ask nicely.... :lol:

pretty pretty please? i loved this story!

I might.... :lol:

Very cool story. I like it because for once it wasn't het and James didn't fall in love with a mary sue fan girl character that captured his heart. Write more James/Kirk stuff, I like what you write.

Thanx! :P

NOOOOOo,why is it over?!?!? I loved it!Do some more metallimembers fiction.Damn,Lars is such a slut,and Jason....I would kill him for telling fran and lani about the love story.
I noticed that everytime James and Kirk were toghether they didn't have time to do anything except for kissing and touching because someone was always bumping into them. Excellent story!MORE!!!!! :D :horns2